The Beautiful Heresy- Christian Universalism

Am I a heretic? Maybe. If believing that God is all powerful, all loving, wiser than His creation and perfectly willing and capable of saving all of His children makes me a heretic, sign me up.


If you've been reading my blog for any length of time surely you've noticed I use G-d instead of God. It's not because I'm superstitious nor do I think it blasphemous to say or type God since it is not God's name anyway.  I'm not sure if I've explained this before.  But, I'll try to explain it now.


I write G-d for a couple of reasons. I picked up the habit when I was conversing with Orthodox Jews on-line.  Similar to not spelling out G-d's name in the time of the Hebrew Scriptures, Orthodox Jews do not write God out of respect now.  It started in written communications where the paper might have been balled up and thrown away.  It was carried over to electronic communications.  I originally started out of respect for my Jewish friends, then carried it over out of respect for G-d.

I also do not write out God because every time I see G-d, I am reminded there is no name for the indescribable, all-in-all.  There is no name that can contain G-d.  So, it's really more of a symbol than a name, in my mind.  It constantly reminds me that G-d cannot be perceived or described- not even spelled.  I had a debate on-line with someone a couple of weeks ago who thinks the name of G-d is Jehovah.  Sorry, I don't think so.   The Hebrews referred to G-d in a number of ways. Some feminine, some masculine.

Anything that puts G-d in a box is a problem for me.  I like alternating feminine and masculine pronouns for G-d again as a reminder of Her incredible expansiveness.  G-d is another way of keeping God out of the box for me.  I don't mind spelling God out.  I don't think He'll strike me down for it.  But, I prefer to try to keep in mind that my mind just can't ever wrap around G-d.



I want to thank each and every one of you who contributed to Sean's surgery and/or who passed along the information about his pending surgery and his family's financial needs.  I am so happy to be able to report that we have raised the $8,500 that his family will need to pay for his surgery and for the other expenses they will have as their 13 year old son undergoes his third open heart surgery. 



In case you missed it, Sean's story is here: Sean Masters Website  Unfortunately, it is not an uncommon one.  A family who works hard just to make ends meet is facing a financial crisis caused by a necessary medical procedure and they are uninsured or underinsured.  In this case, the Masters recently lost their state sponsored health insurance because they were making "too much money".  Ironically, just a month or so after receiving that happy news from the state, the doctors who had been trying to decide on when to schedule this necessary procedure to correct a congenital heart defect decided now is the time.  So, the Masters were being asked to come up with $5,500 in deductible and out-of-pocket medical expenses in in addition to missing work and other expenses.
This is a great example of what can happen when we come together.  A few weeks ago the Masters had no idea how they were going to pay for this.  On May 21st, we launched the appeal to see if we could help them cover some of the costs.  To our great (and happy surprise), with seven weeks to go before the surgery, we have collected all of the money necessary.  Hallelujah!


Yesterday, I went to my second Quaker Friends Meeting. I really had wanted to go back. But, for various reasons, hadn't been able to make it the last two weeks. After the first meeting, I was unsure about how I felt about it. So, I knew I had to give it another try.
The meeting was similar to the first I attended. It was very enjoyable in some ways, uncomfortable in another. It's about a 180 degree turn from worship at the Vineyard which is high energy, constantly moving and keeps you entertained. What I realized about worship at the Vineyard is that there is almost absolutely no time for reflection- for really being alone (or being alone with God). I just finished reading Henri Nouwen's "Reaching Out" where he talks about how we hate to really be alone and the lengths we'll go to to avoid that. At the Vineyard, from the moment you walk in, you're bombarded with PowerPoint ads for upcoming events, then the worship music starts, rock and roll music for 20 minutes, then announcements, then the message. Everything is programmed, every moment is filled. Even during the communion, there's no silence. Because I'm becoming skilled at being mindful, I do find time in there to get still within myself. But, I wonder how many people really do.

OTOH, the Quaker service I've attended seems to be about 60% silence. I'm not sure that balance is good for me either. I took my Bible and decided to do a little reading to reflect on. And, the Pastor's remarks were very good again and really food for thought. So, I reflected on those, after he spoke.

My wife is very happy with the Vineyard and doesn't want to even consider leaving. So, I should attend there, if I can, for her sake. That doesn't mean I can't go somewhere else, too. The Quaker meeting is late enough I can attend both places. It doesn't mean that if I just can't take it anymore, I can't leave the Vineyard for my own well-being. But, attending there is a ministry to her.

So, as I'm pondering all of this and leaving the service yesterday, the Pastor grabs me in the hallway. (I'm not hard to spot. It's a very, very small service and I'm the only black person I've seen there). He says he's been reading my blog and that he's been meaning to comment. I think "cool". Someone actually took the time to read my blog. But, then he says it'd be easier to just talk in person and wants to know if I can meet with him. Now I've got mixed emotions. I feel a little like the kid who's been asked to stay after class (I'm an oldest child- we tend to be that way). So, we've scheduled an appointment for this week.

As I was reflecting on the whole thing coming home, I realized that I really doubt that even if I left the Vineyard anyone (let alone the Senior Pastor) would take the time to meet with me and ask why. Not that Dave's not a great guy or the people at the Vineyard aren't great people. It's just the dynamics of a mega-church. I understand that. Of course, I have no idea what Pastor Dan wants to say to me. But, the fact that he would take the time to meet individually with me, a stranger who has visited the church only twice, the fact that he would take the time to read my blog, that's impressive.

I'll keep you posted (pardon the pun).

Peace,
Brian

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